Catch Up #2 Final Entry

Overall, we got past it. I didn't even really want to post about it but it was a big thing last week. And I had banged my head against the brick wall that Mike has up one too many times. I feel really connected to him but he's been holding back. I don't know what or why but I do know that I care about him enough to give him the time he needs to figure things out for himself. I know how I really feel about things but not really how he does.

On Saturday (February 4th) we were at the one mall and saw teddy bear with a heart that said, "I Love You", on it. He pointed it out. I told him, "By the way, for Valentine's Day, you don't have to get me something that says I love you unless you really feel it. In fact, I don't want anything with any sentiments that you don't actually feel." His response, "How about I like you? I really really really like you?" lol Good enough but I don't think the latter will fit on a heart. ;o)

Oh, one other thing I pointed out to him was that just because we don't seem able to sleep well in the same bed doesn't mean that we are a horrible couple. Granted, at Maya's we had a king-size bed to share (I have a queen), but neither of us slept well despite having more room (he is such a space hog). Of course, I did tell him before the dinner debacle that by saying that he can't sleep well with another person in the same bed he is pretty much subconsciously sabotaging himself so that he won'tbe able to. He is setting himself up to fail by saying it. Val agrees with me on that one. I told him that needing separate beds or even rooms does not mean that we are a horrible couple. Hell, Val and I both just heard two different reports that said that most couples would prefer not to share a bed/room with their significant other. And we both know couples that work quite well being separated. But guess what? We did just fine on Thursday (February 2nd) night. So, there is hope for us. I let him sleep alone in my bed on Friday (he wasn't supposed to stay over but I guess my back massage just relaxed him too much) and the futon on Saturday. And we both slept well and there was no strain on our relationship. Just nice morning cuddles.

Guess we're both bears when we don't get enough good sleep. And that is perfectly understandable and normal.

On Sunday (February 5th) I took him to the airport so he could fly up to PA. As you know from the one interlude, we obviously are all fine right now. I slipped a card into his suitcase along with a bookmark for him to use with the books he took. I also made him take one of my scarves in case he wandered around outside so that he would have extra warmth. What can I say? I like doing things for him.

Jami and her boyfriend took him out again last night and tonight he's off gallivanting around Philly with some of the guys from the training session. I hope that he has a good time.

So, all week I have been trying to catch up on various things. There are just not enough hours in the day. I can't wait to see him tomorrow. So looking forward to picking him up. I took off from the store again. Yeah, I need the hours but I need to spend time with Mike more. Sickening, non? (chuckles) I've promised him a good dinner, a massage, and cuddles.