Monday, September 25, 2006
Happy Birthday!!
Sending out the wishes to Jami and Shawnna who share this wonderful birth date with me. Jami and I are the same age but Shawnna is a few years younger. It's good to know that all of our parents were stuck because of a blizzard. ;o) Love yas!!
Sunday, September 24, 2006
Anime Widow
So, here's the second half:
On Thursday, I was supposed to have gotten home a little after 4p so Mike and I could leave for Atlanta early but instead we left after 6p. He was annoyed with me because he came home at 3p to wait for me instead of doing a last minute call that he’d gotten at work. Even though he was adamant that he understood that it wasn’t my fault that I couldn’t leave work earlier (Jon didn’t get into the store until 4p anyway so I couldn’t have left until then), he was mad that he had to leave a job unfinished before going on vacation. So, our trip started out on a very sour note. I was stressed out because of work – there was more to the stress than just what I wrote above but I’ll spare you that stuff – and because Mike was upset. I wasn’t feeling well (migraine/cramps) so that didn’t help either. It was just so peachy.
As you can imagine, I wasn’t too surprised with how the day ended on Thursday. We get to the hotel only to find out that they had over booked the place and we were being bumped to another hotel. This was at 10:30p. Mike had made his reservations back in February. Heck, there were people who had made them last November who got bumped. It was just peachy. The good thing to come out of it was that we got one night’s free lodging. Sheesh. Got up early on Friday so we could beat the crowds for registration to the 12th annual Anime Weekend Atlanta. Yup, you heard me right. Hence why I have the title of this piece. It’s a con that Mike has gone to the pats couple of years and is one of his favorite things in the whole world. Fortunately, nothing can make Mike unhappy when he is here or we would have had some major problems on Friday cause I was a much less than a happy camper. Lack of sleep, stress, etc. will do that to you. My mood was definitely black and cloudy. My final straw came after it seemed like we might still not get a room. Well, that and Mike admonishing me that I was being rather mean to the receptionist. Mean? I didn’t lose my temper or yell or anything like that. Was I chipper? Heck no but then why should I have to be? I wasn’t feeling well and just wanted to rest. No, it’s not the receptionist’s fault – hence the keeping check of my temper – but I wasn’t about to be uber nice and have them walk all over us. But I guess that I had my super intense scary face on cause Mike was annoyed with me. Hey, we got a room before some other people. Of course, the final straw came when we got up here and there were two doubles instead of a king! So much for snuggling and stuff. But did I go back down and yell at anyone or demand a different room? Nope. THAT would have been unreasonable behavior. Mike just doesn’t appreciate how much I was NOT a bitch on Friday. lol Granted I was being bitchy, but it could have been so much worse.
I ended up spending the afternoon feeling miserable and stressed out. Mike went and did his thing which was good because most of what was wrong was my own mind. And I didn’t want to ruin the con for him. And I did try later that day to cheer up and join in on stuff. But it didn’t really seem to work. Ok – and yes, I’m aware that what I’m going to say is contradictory but whatever – it didn’t help that Mike didn’t seem to really care whether I was with him or not. My presence was inconsequential to whether he was going to have fun. He was happy no matter what I did. On one hand this is good because I wanted him to have a good time. On the other hand, I wanted us to do stuff together. I wanted to be a part of this with him because it’s something he loves. I didn’t want to make him miserable with my mood and leaving me to my own devices certainly made sure that it didn’t but leaving me alone also made me feel cut off and isolated. When I did finally get into a better frame of mind to try and be sociable, my efforts seemed to go unnoticed. Mike later told me that I didn’t have to try and do anything, I just had to have fun.
(Sigh) But that’s just the problem, isn’t it? I had told him before that I didn’t want him to worry about me cause I can keep myself amused. But then I fall into the whole “I would have more fun being with you” trap. I would prefer to spend the con time with Mike but not everything he wanted to see is something I find interesting. 95% of what I did watch was pretty good but there were some things I just couldn’t raise the energy for. Part of it is that I’m too damned tired. The last few months have sapped me out and I just don’t have much energy right now. I’ve had to take naps the past two days in the afternoon just so I could function at night.
At any rate, this is all a problem with me. I realized yesterday morning that here I am like women who are with football crazed fans – the sport takes precedence over the relationship. So, I am an anime widow instead of a football widow. The major difference is that I only have to deal with “losing” Mike for one weekend a year instead of months. lol Mike is used to doing his own thing at the con. He’s not used to having someone else around with him. He wants me to have a good time but not the expense of his good time here. And since it’s his “thing”, what he wants matters more. If this were my con, then the roles would be reversed. It has certainly been a learning experience, that’s for sure.
Yesterday was much better. After some sleep, I was ok to do stuff. Mike and I were together on and off throughout the day. Had a really stressful phone call from Jon about more problems at the store (Tyler was hit in the eye with a cord at the kiosk, another person called out due to home problems with a water main, etc). Grrr. But then Mike and I had a nice dinner. He bought me a bag that I had thought was cool. And he got me a pair of cat ears cause I said that I wanted some. They’re pretty cool. We watched a few hours of shows. They were pretty good and I feel better about everything. I found some that I could get into. I’ll never be as into this stuff as he is but that’s ok. I don’t need to be. So long as he’s ok with that, I’m ok with it. I did drag him to see some Hentai (cartoon porn) cause I was curious about it. The first one was, well, interesting. The second one was funny and the audience was a good one to be with. Overall, the day ended pretty well even if he didn’t come back to the room with me and. . . . lol
Today we have spent the entire time apart. There weren’t any shows that I wanted to see. So, I went shopping instead. Got a few more stocking stuffers for Christmas. And wandered to the mall so I could get some stuff. But I am still tired and feeling eh. I know that part of my mood is because tomorrow is my birthday and I am always a grump around it cause it never goes quite the way I want it too. I’ll live. Mike should be back soon. The closing ceremonies should be over by now and I can finally have him back. Would really like a good long cuddle right now.
On Thursday, I was supposed to have gotten home a little after 4p so Mike and I could leave for Atlanta early but instead we left after 6p. He was annoyed with me because he came home at 3p to wait for me instead of doing a last minute call that he’d gotten at work. Even though he was adamant that he understood that it wasn’t my fault that I couldn’t leave work earlier (Jon didn’t get into the store until 4p anyway so I couldn’t have left until then), he was mad that he had to leave a job unfinished before going on vacation. So, our trip started out on a very sour note. I was stressed out because of work – there was more to the stress than just what I wrote above but I’ll spare you that stuff – and because Mike was upset. I wasn’t feeling well (migraine/cramps) so that didn’t help either. It was just so peachy.
As you can imagine, I wasn’t too surprised with how the day ended on Thursday. We get to the hotel only to find out that they had over booked the place and we were being bumped to another hotel. This was at 10:30p. Mike had made his reservations back in February. Heck, there were people who had made them last November who got bumped. It was just peachy. The good thing to come out of it was that we got one night’s free lodging. Sheesh. Got up early on Friday so we could beat the crowds for registration to the 12th annual Anime Weekend Atlanta. Yup, you heard me right. Hence why I have the title of this piece. It’s a con that Mike has gone to the pats couple of years and is one of his favorite things in the whole world. Fortunately, nothing can make Mike unhappy when he is here or we would have had some major problems on Friday cause I was a much less than a happy camper. Lack of sleep, stress, etc. will do that to you. My mood was definitely black and cloudy. My final straw came after it seemed like we might still not get a room. Well, that and Mike admonishing me that I was being rather mean to the receptionist. Mean? I didn’t lose my temper or yell or anything like that. Was I chipper? Heck no but then why should I have to be? I wasn’t feeling well and just wanted to rest. No, it’s not the receptionist’s fault – hence the keeping check of my temper – but I wasn’t about to be uber nice and have them walk all over us. But I guess that I had my super intense scary face on cause Mike was annoyed with me. Hey, we got a room before some other people. Of course, the final straw came when we got up here and there were two doubles instead of a king! So much for snuggling and stuff. But did I go back down and yell at anyone or demand a different room? Nope. THAT would have been unreasonable behavior. Mike just doesn’t appreciate how much I was NOT a bitch on Friday. lol Granted I was being bitchy, but it could have been so much worse.
I ended up spending the afternoon feeling miserable and stressed out. Mike went and did his thing which was good because most of what was wrong was my own mind. And I didn’t want to ruin the con for him. And I did try later that day to cheer up and join in on stuff. But it didn’t really seem to work. Ok – and yes, I’m aware that what I’m going to say is contradictory but whatever – it didn’t help that Mike didn’t seem to really care whether I was with him or not. My presence was inconsequential to whether he was going to have fun. He was happy no matter what I did. On one hand this is good because I wanted him to have a good time. On the other hand, I wanted us to do stuff together. I wanted to be a part of this with him because it’s something he loves. I didn’t want to make him miserable with my mood and leaving me to my own devices certainly made sure that it didn’t but leaving me alone also made me feel cut off and isolated. When I did finally get into a better frame of mind to try and be sociable, my efforts seemed to go unnoticed. Mike later told me that I didn’t have to try and do anything, I just had to have fun.
(Sigh) But that’s just the problem, isn’t it? I had told him before that I didn’t want him to worry about me cause I can keep myself amused. But then I fall into the whole “I would have more fun being with you” trap. I would prefer to spend the con time with Mike but not everything he wanted to see is something I find interesting. 95% of what I did watch was pretty good but there were some things I just couldn’t raise the energy for. Part of it is that I’m too damned tired. The last few months have sapped me out and I just don’t have much energy right now. I’ve had to take naps the past two days in the afternoon just so I could function at night.
At any rate, this is all a problem with me. I realized yesterday morning that here I am like women who are with football crazed fans – the sport takes precedence over the relationship. So, I am an anime widow instead of a football widow. The major difference is that I only have to deal with “losing” Mike for one weekend a year instead of months. lol Mike is used to doing his own thing at the con. He’s not used to having someone else around with him. He wants me to have a good time but not the expense of his good time here. And since it’s his “thing”, what he wants matters more. If this were my con, then the roles would be reversed. It has certainly been a learning experience, that’s for sure.
Yesterday was much better. After some sleep, I was ok to do stuff. Mike and I were together on and off throughout the day. Had a really stressful phone call from Jon about more problems at the store (Tyler was hit in the eye with a cord at the kiosk, another person called out due to home problems with a water main, etc). Grrr. But then Mike and I had a nice dinner. He bought me a bag that I had thought was cool. And he got me a pair of cat ears cause I said that I wanted some. They’re pretty cool. We watched a few hours of shows. They were pretty good and I feel better about everything. I found some that I could get into. I’ll never be as into this stuff as he is but that’s ok. I don’t need to be. So long as he’s ok with that, I’m ok with it. I did drag him to see some Hentai (cartoon porn) cause I was curious about it. The first one was, well, interesting. The second one was funny and the audience was a good one to be with. Overall, the day ended pretty well even if he didn’t come back to the room with me and. . . . lol
Today we have spent the entire time apart. There weren’t any shows that I wanted to see. So, I went shopping instead. Got a few more stocking stuffers for Christmas. And wandered to the mall so I could get some stuff. But I am still tired and feeling eh. I know that part of my mood is because tomorrow is my birthday and I am always a grump around it cause it never goes quite the way I want it too. I’ll live. Mike should be back soon. The closing ceremonies should be over by now and I can finally have him back. Would really like a good long cuddle right now.
And Now For Something Completely Stressful
Ok, I'm gonna have to do this as two separate entries so here's the first:
Man, has it only been ten days since I last wrote? Since like much longer than that. I am currently in an Atlanta hotel room waiting for Mike to return from the closing ceremonies of the convention we have been at. It’s been an interesting and educational weekend. But before I go into that, let me set it all up from the last time I wrote.
I mentioned how fubar things have been going with our calendar kiosks. I swear to God that they are cursed this year. We keep having the worst luck with finding enough good and reliable employees. It so wasn’t this hard the past few years. But then, we weren’t stuck with two kiosks either. Plus, even though the gas prices are going down, people are still not shopping like last year. That should hopefully change later in the season but fiscal September sucked big time.
Anyway, the employee situation. . .we have some really good and reliable people so far (thank you Felicia, Tyler, and Kaitlyn) and I just found another one who stepped up and helped us out a lot last week (thanks Mark). But we have also been having an even bigger problem with others (names being withheld on purpose). The first person to quit was because he didn’t realize that we sold as much “porn” as we do. Ummm. . .ok. Let’s just say that his definition of the word included the swimsuit calendars as well as karma sutra books. Whatever. The second person to quit was because she was bored out of her mind. We warn everyone that the kiosks are mind numbing at this time of year. But it does get better. She set us up for much scheduling headaches because she quit in the middle of her shift without warning. The third major quit was a bigger loss because she seemed like she would have fit in well with us. We lost her because she didn’t realize that we were only hiring seasonal employees with no guarantee that they can stay beyond the end of the holidays. Not sure why this wasn’t clear to begin with but the pay wasn’t what she expected either. I do hope that she does better at her next job. I think I missed someone else on the quitting front but my brain is too fried to remember all.
Then there’s the big headache with another employee who has awesome availability on paper but has proven unreliable in various ways. Let’s see, first off, her interview was fine. Nothing spectacular. She wasn’t super vocal or anything but no major red flags went off. Tony found her to be a little too reticent for his taste but was willing to give her a try. Things started off ok. She had problems with closing the register down but that’s fairly normal the first time so no biggie. But the problem didn’t get better. Over the course of a week and a half she messed up her stuff – even with help – so much that we can’t have her closing for a while. None of the others care for her because of certain attitudes that have been given off so that doesn’t help matters. She called off sick the one night which isn’t a big deal in and of itself but it added fuel. The near final straw came when we realized that she was wandering away from the kiosk without us knowing where she was. That and she was caught texting on her cell phone. We’ve been running spot checks on her and all looked ok but it all just happened too much at once. Too many screw ups in a short amount of time. Tony didn’t want to fire her but instead he wanted to cut her back to two days a week. Considering that she wanted a lot of hours and stuff, I could pretty much guarantee that she was going to quit because of it. He hates to fire people. And he wanted to give her some time to get her act together unless she was caught doing any of the above things again. Well, I haven’t scheduled her at all for next week and I’ll tell you why: she called out at the last minute on Thursday night to say that she couldn’t come in because she’d just been evicted from her apartment and only had the evening to get her stuff out. I know that it doesn’t work that way without warning but that was the final straw for me. I left her off the schedule because I had no way of talking with Tony before I wrote it up. We can’t afford to keep putting up with this stuff. Plus, the eviction puts her into the company’s red flag zone as far as loss/prevention is concerned.
It didn’t help matters that Kaitlyn had already called out earlier in the day because she was really sick (she’d caught what was going around) and we hadn’t yet found someone to replace her. No one could come in except for the new guy. We were also having problems with both kiosk registers all week and on Thursday. The week was very stressful.
Man, has it only been ten days since I last wrote? Since like much longer than that. I am currently in an Atlanta hotel room waiting for Mike to return from the closing ceremonies of the convention we have been at. It’s been an interesting and educational weekend. But before I go into that, let me set it all up from the last time I wrote.
I mentioned how fubar things have been going with our calendar kiosks. I swear to God that they are cursed this year. We keep having the worst luck with finding enough good and reliable employees. It so wasn’t this hard the past few years. But then, we weren’t stuck with two kiosks either. Plus, even though the gas prices are going down, people are still not shopping like last year. That should hopefully change later in the season but fiscal September sucked big time.
Anyway, the employee situation. . .we have some really good and reliable people so far (thank you Felicia, Tyler, and Kaitlyn) and I just found another one who stepped up and helped us out a lot last week (thanks Mark). But we have also been having an even bigger problem with others (names being withheld on purpose). The first person to quit was because he didn’t realize that we sold as much “porn” as we do. Ummm. . .ok. Let’s just say that his definition of the word included the swimsuit calendars as well as karma sutra books. Whatever. The second person to quit was because she was bored out of her mind. We warn everyone that the kiosks are mind numbing at this time of year. But it does get better. She set us up for much scheduling headaches because she quit in the middle of her shift without warning. The third major quit was a bigger loss because she seemed like she would have fit in well with us. We lost her because she didn’t realize that we were only hiring seasonal employees with no guarantee that they can stay beyond the end of the holidays. Not sure why this wasn’t clear to begin with but the pay wasn’t what she expected either. I do hope that she does better at her next job. I think I missed someone else on the quitting front but my brain is too fried to remember all.
Then there’s the big headache with another employee who has awesome availability on paper but has proven unreliable in various ways. Let’s see, first off, her interview was fine. Nothing spectacular. She wasn’t super vocal or anything but no major red flags went off. Tony found her to be a little too reticent for his taste but was willing to give her a try. Things started off ok. She had problems with closing the register down but that’s fairly normal the first time so no biggie. But the problem didn’t get better. Over the course of a week and a half she messed up her stuff – even with help – so much that we can’t have her closing for a while. None of the others care for her because of certain attitudes that have been given off so that doesn’t help matters. She called off sick the one night which isn’t a big deal in and of itself but it added fuel. The near final straw came when we realized that she was wandering away from the kiosk without us knowing where she was. That and she was caught texting on her cell phone. We’ve been running spot checks on her and all looked ok but it all just happened too much at once. Too many screw ups in a short amount of time. Tony didn’t want to fire her but instead he wanted to cut her back to two days a week. Considering that she wanted a lot of hours and stuff, I could pretty much guarantee that she was going to quit because of it. He hates to fire people. And he wanted to give her some time to get her act together unless she was caught doing any of the above things again. Well, I haven’t scheduled her at all for next week and I’ll tell you why: she called out at the last minute on Thursday night to say that she couldn’t come in because she’d just been evicted from her apartment and only had the evening to get her stuff out. I know that it doesn’t work that way without warning but that was the final straw for me. I left her off the schedule because I had no way of talking with Tony before I wrote it up. We can’t afford to keep putting up with this stuff. Plus, the eviction puts her into the company’s red flag zone as far as loss/prevention is concerned.
It didn’t help matters that Kaitlyn had already called out earlier in the day because she was really sick (she’d caught what was going around) and we hadn’t yet found someone to replace her. No one could come in except for the new guy. We were also having problems with both kiosk registers all week and on Thursday. The week was very stressful.
Thursday, September 14, 2006
Egads!!
I tell you, I feel like I'm cut off from civilization and miss you all so much. You can't blame it on Mike though. This isn't a case of spending all my "free time with a guy syndrome." No, that would have been earlier this year. Mike and I have settled into comfortable coupledom. What's been keeping me away has been work. I'm rarely home at a decent hour and when I am, I'm too tired to write. But I am planning on changing that. I feel like a big meanie for neglecting you all and I am sooooo sorry.
Anyway, it's probably best to just give a brief synopsis of the past two months. Mike and I moved into a four bedroom house in the middle of July. Packing and stuff pretty much took up the end of June until end of July. Took us two weekends to move everything. We were smart and did an overlap of the two places (Mike's idea) so that we could space out the moving. I have so much stuff! Omg, it's insane. Since then we have settled into a comfortable routine but have been so busy that we haven't been able to really unpack. It feels like we're living in our storage area. lol But we have to get cracking because Valerie is coming to visit with her fiance (yes, you heard me right -- she's engaged!) so we need to have a place for them to sleep. It's good though cause I really need to get a move on. Part of the reason we didn't unpack much is because I needed to wait for school to start up again so I can afford bookshelves. lol Mike's convinced I have way more books than I think I do (which is over 4000).
I was going to try and catch up two weeks ago but ended up with a nasty sinus infection. It's been making the rounds. I didn't take off from work so it ended up hanging on far longer than it should have. I worked my ass off last week (almost 50 hours at the store plus teaching hours). So, I gave myself two days off in a row this week. Was gonna catch up yesterday but the rain made me feel blech so I slept. Been feeling insomniatic this week. Really need a break. So, Mike and I are planning on going away to the mountains during my fall break.
I really like working at the bookstore but it is sucking up way more of my energy than it should. The last two weeks have been the worst because we were trying to get our calendar kiosks (yes, this year we have two, oh joy) up and there was major fubaredness happening (none of it our fault -- thank the corporate crackheads for this one). It didn't help that I was sick and Tony (manager) was sick at the same time. He's in rehearsals for a musical and that's sapping him. We've all been covering and taking care of more things so that he can focus on it cause it's something he loves to do. Thought it would make him happy but I dunno. He was majorly stressed the last two weeks because of everything and he took it out on us big time. It wasn't just one of his brief minute spazzes but a stretched out one. And none of us needs this kind of stress. The good thing is that the rest of us are backing each other up in the schedule, etc. Jon and I rotate weekends and now Lindsay has the other key so we'll be able to balance even better so none of us burns out. We're all doing other things (school or other work) and now Tony is seeing what it is like for us to be juggling dual "jobs". Problem is, I don't think it's made him more empathetic. Just grouchy.
So we'll see. I gotta get our house organized so that I can set up some kind of schedule for myself which will include keeping in touch with you all. You have no idea how much I miss ya. Please be patient with me. I think about each of you a lot and so wanna talk. I just gotta get all of my ducks in a row. It's been great having Mike cause he is a big help. It's good to have someone to snuggle with. And he deals with my snarkiness when I'm grumpy. Part of the problem this year is a lack of downtime for my brain. Gonna take that so I can be my usual tigger self and have more energy for all the fun things I haven't been able to do lately.
Anyway, I gotta run. So need to clean today. Mike is as good as me at ignoring stuff. I think that's a blessing and a curse. lol I'll try and be better and post at least once a week. Love and hugs to you all.
Anyway, it's probably best to just give a brief synopsis of the past two months. Mike and I moved into a four bedroom house in the middle of July. Packing and stuff pretty much took up the end of June until end of July. Took us two weekends to move everything. We were smart and did an overlap of the two places (Mike's idea) so that we could space out the moving. I have so much stuff! Omg, it's insane. Since then we have settled into a comfortable routine but have been so busy that we haven't been able to really unpack. It feels like we're living in our storage area. lol But we have to get cracking because Valerie is coming to visit with her fiance (yes, you heard me right -- she's engaged!) so we need to have a place for them to sleep. It's good though cause I really need to get a move on. Part of the reason we didn't unpack much is because I needed to wait for school to start up again so I can afford bookshelves. lol Mike's convinced I have way more books than I think I do (which is over 4000).
I was going to try and catch up two weeks ago but ended up with a nasty sinus infection. It's been making the rounds. I didn't take off from work so it ended up hanging on far longer than it should have. I worked my ass off last week (almost 50 hours at the store plus teaching hours). So, I gave myself two days off in a row this week. Was gonna catch up yesterday but the rain made me feel blech so I slept. Been feeling insomniatic this week. Really need a break. So, Mike and I are planning on going away to the mountains during my fall break.
I really like working at the bookstore but it is sucking up way more of my energy than it should. The last two weeks have been the worst because we were trying to get our calendar kiosks (yes, this year we have two, oh joy) up and there was major fubaredness happening (none of it our fault -- thank the corporate crackheads for this one). It didn't help that I was sick and Tony (manager) was sick at the same time. He's in rehearsals for a musical and that's sapping him. We've all been covering and taking care of more things so that he can focus on it cause it's something he loves to do. Thought it would make him happy but I dunno. He was majorly stressed the last two weeks because of everything and he took it out on us big time. It wasn't just one of his brief minute spazzes but a stretched out one. And none of us needs this kind of stress. The good thing is that the rest of us are backing each other up in the schedule, etc. Jon and I rotate weekends and now Lindsay has the other key so we'll be able to balance even better so none of us burns out. We're all doing other things (school or other work) and now Tony is seeing what it is like for us to be juggling dual "jobs". Problem is, I don't think it's made him more empathetic. Just grouchy.
So we'll see. I gotta get our house organized so that I can set up some kind of schedule for myself which will include keeping in touch with you all. You have no idea how much I miss ya. Please be patient with me. I think about each of you a lot and so wanna talk. I just gotta get all of my ducks in a row. It's been great having Mike cause he is a big help. It's good to have someone to snuggle with. And he deals with my snarkiness when I'm grumpy. Part of the problem this year is a lack of downtime for my brain. Gonna take that so I can be my usual tigger self and have more energy for all the fun things I haven't been able to do lately.
Anyway, I gotta run. So need to clean today. Mike is as good as me at ignoring stuff. I think that's a blessing and a curse. lol I'll try and be better and post at least once a week. Love and hugs to you all.
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